Friday, September 16, 2011

It's True.

My LoverBoy is home!!!
He has been home since August 16th.
He is OFFICIALLY on leave starting TODAY!
Life is still kinda crazy.
We are both still adjusting.
Our kids are adjusting.
13 months is a VERY long time.
I prefer to never do it again.
But if I must, I will!
I know I've changed a lot.
I know my LoverBoy has changed a lot.
Our kids have changed a lot.
But we are HAPPY, VERY HAPPY!
I personally have been going through A LOT of changes even now.
Lots of doctor visits.
But I am on my way to being healthier.
I've learned the importance of not bottling everything up.
Everything from my childhood & on...
EXPLODED
on me.
It was like I drank to much & vomited all over myself.
And then I didn't even know where to start to clean it up.
But with the help of doctors my mess isn't as messy!
I am dealing with everything one day at a time.
I was just diagnosed yesterday with some things I never thought I ever had.
But I'm learning to be okay with it, I have to be okay with it.
At first I felt like the person I have always been was a lie.
But I know it isn't.
I still have the same morals.
I still have the same beliefs.
I still have the same love for my husband & children.
I still am the same woman I have always been.
Just with a new challenge to adapt to & learn from.
I KNOW
I am WAY to strong to give up.
I am excited to see where life goes from here.
I start school next month.
SUPER EXCITED!!!
I am going for medical transcription, billing & coding.
NO, it isn't my life dream.
But I get to stay at home with my gorgeous babies & still make money.
I was also offered to display my handmade crocheting items in a local store in the
Temecula Promenade Mall
Which is an amazing opportunity, that I am very excited about.
God has been good to us!
I am back.
I think.
My husband & children will still be coming first.
But I do miss blogging.
I miss letting everything out.
Or most everything.
I'm not ready to let EVERYTHING out yet.
I'm still afraid to be judged harshly for those who don't understand or that would even try to understand.
But I know one day I will be ready.
I look forward to following all your blogs again!!!



7 comments:

Skinnie Piggie said...

1st- SO EXCITED HE'S HOME
2nd- SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU IN MY BLOG FEED AGAIN!

=)

TheMarineWife said...

THANK YOU!!!

Skinnie Piggie said...

I tried to figure out how to e-mail you, but it was an epic fail...

I wanted to know if you'd like to participate in my birthday palooza giveaway... give some more publicity to your skull stitches business. Plus any of my blog followers would be lucky to win a cute beanie handmade by you!

You can read about it here:
http://skinniepiggie.blogspot.com/2011/08/birthday-giveaway-palooza.html

Paula said...

So glad you're back! I wondered what happened to you. LOVE the hair! You look so different :)
I'm so glad you're getting some help for whatever medical issues you have. It sounds like you have a lot to deal with but are doing it beautifully.

Nicole said...

So glad you're back blogging! And feeling better about life, yourself....and EVERYTHING! I was so happy to see you left a comment on my blog, I've missed you!!

Alicia Nicole Lovett said...

YAYY I am glad you are back in the blogger world! Welcome back!

Mr. Superman & Mrs. S. said...

Yayyyy! I'm back too. You look fabulous btw and I adore all the pics of your loverfaces homecoming!