Nightmares.

We were all in the car, I was driving...

Paul & I got into a fight, I don't remember what it was over but he told me wanted to leave me, wanted a divorce.

I lost it for a moment, control of my thoughts, my emotions & of the steering wheel.

We were headed straight for a lake, I knew we were, going to crash into it,

I just screamed at Paul,

"Save our babies, PLEASE SAVE OUR BABIES!"

We entered the water, Paul got Kyler out & kept pushing him to the surface, I got Lana & finally grabbed Kyler & swam as hard & fast as I could.

We reach the surface & I can't see Paul anywhere...

I had to keep swimming to shore to save our babies, I couldn't go back down & find Paul.

Over & over again my mind thinking

"Where is he??! Please come up...PLEASE COME UP!!!"

Then I woke up...I looked at my sleeping husband & babies & lost it...

still having a hard time keeping back the tears.

I hate nightmares, they are much too real sometimes.