In this moment

I stole this idea from Amber

Currently...

I am....

Watching: My 3 & 4 year old drink their hot chocolate & giving themselves chocolate mustaches....with Pokoyo on TV.

Eating: Nothing...ate REAL oatmeal meal with my babies! First time I've made it in awhile...my daughter gagged...I guess she likes the instant better.

Drinking: Water...just about everything else makes me throw up with this Transformer in my belly!

YEP...we're expecting baby number 3 & I'm currently 12 weeks!!!

I'm due June 27th...hoping to have a (repeat) csec on my Mema's 73rd birthday...June 23!

Lana just turned 3 on November 18th & Kyler will be 5 on June 21st...so as long as they don't have the SAME birthday...I'll be glad!

& YES...we do have names picked out...

Wearing: Bright yellow tank top, gray sweat capri's & white socks...super cute! BAHAHA

Avoiding: The mess in my sink from making homemade chicken enchilada's last night!

Feeling: Barfy...very common lately.

Missing: My family in NorCal & my bestest girlfriends! :o)))

Thankful: For my kiddos (& our new one on the way!)...they are making me laugh...they are playing

(of course only in their underware because they "HATE wearing clothes!"...& I'm NOT kidding!)

"house" with their toys & it's so stinkin' cute!

Lana: "I'm the Mommy & I said it's time to go to bed!"

Kyler: "I'm the Daddy & I say if you don't be quite & go to bed you're gonna have problems."

Lana: "Tinkerbell are you ready to listen?!"

I have no idea where they hear those things from...

weird.

Weather: 48 degrees & raining like crazy...supposed to have thunder storms tonight! I LOVE IT!!!

Needing: To finish crocheting & sewing a few more Christmas gifts!

Thinking: About all the yarn I need to stock up on...I'm even out of white & black!

Loving: That my family is growing & that I'm so blessed with such beautiful children & such a supportive husband! He is so good to me & always puts me first & that our life together just keeps getting better! :oDDD

CHOPPED!

I chopped my hair &...

I LOVE IT!!!

I know you can't tell but my ends were pretty fried & it need of some cutting.

And I want to get some serious blondage happening soon & I knew my ends would

NOT

be able to handle it!

Plus...it's hair it will always grow back!!!

BEFORE:

AFTER:

It's True.

My LoverBoy is home!!!

He has been home since August 16th.
He is OFFICIALLY on leave starting TODAY!
Life is still kinda crazy.
We are both still adjusting.
Our kids are adjusting.
13 months is a VERY long time.
I prefer to never do it again.
But if I must, I will!
I know I've changed a lot.
I know my LoverBoy has changed a lot.
Our kids have changed a lot.
But we are HAPPY, VERY HAPPY!
I personally have been going through A LOT of changes even now.
Lots of doctor visits.
But I am on my way to being healthier.
I've learned the importance of not bottling everything up.
Everything from my childhood & on...
EXPLODED
on me.
It was like I drank to much & vomited all over myself.
And then I didn't even know where to start to clean it up.
But with the help of doctors my mess isn't as messy!
I am dealing with everything one day at a time.
I was just diagnosed yesterday with some things I never thought I ever had.
But I'm learning to be okay with it, I have to be okay with it.
At first I felt like the person I have always been was a lie.
But I know it isn't.
I still have the same morals.
I still have the same beliefs.
I still have the same love for my husband & children.
I still am the same woman I have always been.
Just with a new challenge to adapt to & learn from.
I KNOW
I am WAY to strong to give up.
I am excited to see where life goes from here.
I start school next month.
SUPER EXCITED!!!
I am going for medical transcription, billing & coding.
NO, it isn't my life dream.
But I get to stay at home with my gorgeous babies & still make money.
I was also offered to display my handmade crocheting items in a local store in the
Temecula Promenade Mall
Which is an amazing opportunity, that I am very excited about.
God has been good to us!
I am back.
I think.
My husband & children will still be coming first.
But I do miss blogging.
I miss letting everything out.
Or most everything.
I'm not ready to let EVERYTHING out yet.
I'm still afraid to be judged harshly for those who don't understand or that would even try to understand.
But I know one day I will be ready.
I look forward to following all your blogs again!!!